Oh yeah now that I have access to my desktop I think I’ll actually talk about this. So ya know how I was all set and proud to graduate in four years? Yeah, met with my adviser a week ago and had him tell me that since I got a D+ in ACC 202 (I need a C- or higher for it to count towards my degree), that I have to take it again and pass it before I can even take my business capstone. I was planning on taking both at the same time, but apparently even though I was allowed take a Finance course that required ACC 202, I can’t do that for my capstone. So ya boi has to take it over the summer, online, and pay out of pocket. It still makes me angry as hell but hey my dad didn’t blow up like I thought he would, told me that he’ll cover the expense, and I still get to walk the stage in May. Things could be worse, but still, Oswego’s administration drives me up the wall sometimes.
So I’m reading through the copy of It I got from my school’s library and some ignorant asshole decided to scrawl some fuckin’ love note about her boyfriend in the section where Mike Hanlon’s dad is talking about the fire that killed all his friends. Like c’mon man this isn’t high school and if you’re writing a declaration of love for your boyfriend in one of the most fucked up books Stephen King ever wrote then that says more about your relationship than your note does
I always bounce between my core three: Snatch, the Final Cut version of Blade Runner, and the Director’s Cut of Kingdom of Heaven.
I’m probably not the best help on this, my anxiety was disgustingly bad this past summer (before me and Holly started dating) but I haven’t really felt “unlovable” since high school. I got a lot more confident right around my sophomore year of college (shameless ZBT plug blah blah blah) and haven’t really felt worried about my romantic future. I’d say the best thing to do is try and find a hobby that really speaks to you and cultivate it, passion for one thing (especially a large quantity of passion) is what breeds a lot more passion in general. Generally tends to draw good people to you. Kinda vague, I know, but that’s what really helped my sadsack ass.